Sometimes I have periodical self-consciousness ambiguity,
All of sudden the strangeness of being is strongly sensed.
Sometimes,
I felt depressed,
I felt melancholy,
I felt happy,
I felt angry.
However, I was neither of them.
Are they the real me?
I kept avoiding dealing with myself, with the cloak of layers of camouflage,
eventually, I no longer acquainted with myself.
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有時我會有自我意識模糊的時候,
那瞬間的我感覺很陌生.
有時, 我會感覺沮喪, 而那不是我.
有時, 我會感覺憂鬱, 而那不是我.
有時, 我會感覺喜悅, 而那不是我.
有時, 我會感覺憤怒, 而那不是我.
那真的不是我?
我為自己披了太多保護色. 無法坦白面對自己,
以致我再也不熟悉自己的我.